the next chapter

After so many ups and downs over the last week. Mostly because "A" was to call to set up another meeting. I left her a message on sunday and by tuesday we hadn't heard from her. I checked in with agency to see if they had heard from her. My heart was starting to think it was over. Too much time to think. J and V and I went for a long walk yesterday at 2:30 and on the way back "A" called. She apologized for not getting back to us (which I know the freak out is more my time schedule since she is so busy a cuple days is nothing). She told us she had an ultrasound and "he" was about 7lb 7 oz. at almost 38 weeks. And then finally told us she had chosen us to be his adoptive parents. She was wanting to tell us in person by presenting us with "slippers" (booties).Such a sweet gesture and on cue with the lovely person she is. I felt as though someone pulled the sidewalk right from under me. I could barely walk and my heart started beating fast as i knew we had finally gotten that much closer. I tried not to let myself jump to the end just know it was very close to being real. J was able to talk with her too and hearing her talk to him warmed my heart... with her genes and his parenting "he" is likely to be an amazing kid!

Of course we were elated. We have really become attached to her and were worried she didn't return the affection. Not that she ever said so much but she was a little hard to read in the matter. We both had already pictured our life with "him" in it and now can talk about those dreams out loud.

I immediately called our agency to ask if this was for real? They had known since last week she was going to pick us and had already let the other couple know. The next step is to get to some details... which hospital...when she wants us there... etc.

so the next chapter begins...